fog

To believe, we need to get the gospel from our heads into our hearts! It is possible for us to merely go through the motions of living the gospel because it is expected or because it is the culture in which we have grown up or because it is a habit.

We all need to seek to have our hearts and very natures changed so that we no longer have a desire to follow the ways of the world but to please God. True conversion is a process that takes place over a period of time and involves a willingness to exercise faith.

Do I Believe?  

By Bonnie L. Oscarson

April 2016

I know she's talking about conversion and committing to keeping the commandments. However, I feel these words differently as I climb out of the recent depression pit.  

Depression makes it difficult to see anything clearly, even God's love. Those habits, or going through the motions, are essential for me to keep my head above water.  

I may be in cruise control as my eyes pass over the words. The fog is thick but the commitment is there.

Slowly, the mists begin to thin. Bits of hope begin getting through. Just familiar words and phrases that touch an unconscious part of my soul.  

The little bits of love and hope form together until they burn through the haze. Like waking up, the memory of God’s love for me shones through. 

With that pure light and warmth, the mists clear and I'm still within the Lord’s paths. Interacting with scriptures daily gives my soul a chance to grab the life line. The way back is slow but it's there. The Lord keeps us in His hands even when, especially when, we can't comprehend it.